Sometimes motherhood is hard. I wish naps were a bit longer and the tantrums were more few and far between. But yesterday at the park I had one of those moments that you just want to freeze and file for quick retrieval.
JJ and I were at playgroup and he wanted me to give him a kiss before he went to play with the older kids. I realized that my boy will not always want to give me kisses... especially not in front of other kids. He was so sweet as he called me "lovie" and ran up the stairs. (yes.. I am aware how cute the word "uhvee" sounds coming out of the 19 month old.. I wish I could freeze that too.. oh .. and his spontaneous "cank yous!").Then, today I caught the end of the new Trace Atkins song that says
"You're gonna miss this, you're gonna want this back, you're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast.. These are some good times so take a good look around, You may not know it now, but you're gonna miss this."
Yeah.. I know. I was BAWLING! I pulled over, climbed in the back seat and squeezed my sweet boy.
More often than not, I am the one who is looking to the next hurdle to jump. While single, I waited for marriage, while childless, motherhood... etc. I have tried to make an effort regarding JJ to cherish each moment and steer clear of using the phrase "it will be nice when... (he iw talking, walking, eating real food... etc)"
I already know that I will miss this, but it was a nice reminder!